Wednesday, March 28, 2018

A long story as a update about my current life in Slovenia.

Living in Slovenia, not as easy as thought.
Even though I get loads of help and support I have to admit after some 6 months that it isn't as easy as I thought it should be after all. Although I hardly can imagine what I must have been thinking back then in September but I am sure I thought it would be easier in certain ways. Nonetheless every single bit is worth it one way or the other. Struggles might be an important part of life, or at least in mine.

In the last couple of months many things did change and happen, and mostly for the sake of good.
I made steps but not always in the exact direction as I had hoped they would, it is a long journey with more hills to climb then I could foresee. Yet like I mentioned before I am think it is all worth it for many reason and thus I am also grateful for being here. And now since the snow started to disappear, and the cool wind brings a subtle taste of spring to my room, I again feel even more motivated and energetic. It might be also true that these past two months, covered with snow and darkness, has taken something from me, but I am assured that what winter took, will come back with spring and give me everything to renew and continue.

Even though the mountain tops are still covered with snow, which as for now I might never happen to see uncovered again from this view, I am assured spring, thus summer is coming quick. About that view on the now still snowcapped alps,well obviously the snow will be gone soon but unfortunately I will be gone even sooner. And so I won't be able to see them again like I did last summer and autumn.

It is not exactly true, I ain't leaving for real, but I am going to move to another apartment, one that wont have 'the' view, how much I will miss that. But that change will sure be very good and important for me, this new step is something that I am just very much looking forward to. I can't dive to deep into this matter since I want to give a more general update related to my current status in live and my artistic work and such. But sure I can say that relocating will do me good, and more then that.
It feels as if this step of moving, from my current (student) room to a apartment,will finally make things more certain and decisive. This step will force me even more to make it happen here in Slovenia, and that heading back North for longer period will be more or less completely out of the picture. Whereas until now this was, how bad to think like this, but truly always still an last option somewhere flooding in the back of my mind.

Also the location of my (near) future home, is wonderful and might will make me more connected with the center of this town, thus the center of it all, and most likely help and motivate me (and my surroundings) much/even more, to become successful.

Until now my life here didn't seemed to be a great success, the few job interviews I had were a failure, or didn't work out in certain ways. Of course a big part is here totally on me, however it is a fact that things just aren't easy, and ok it is true I do have a handicap, so to say, I simply don't skill the language yet. It happened that I got invited for job interviews, even when they already knew about the lacking knowledge of the Slovene language and the outcome was always the same, the language was an issue after all.

Time passed and time and there seemed to be less and less of it while I kept trying to get job interviews, learning the language and what all not, I also tried to keep being creative and make my artistic career rolling. But unfortunately I had to find out that this didn't go well together, at least not that much. Basically because everything just consumes a lot of time and effort, and meanly because it is hard to get a real focus and get into the 'flow' of working when there is a constant underlying stress and unrest about getting things done and straight. I never was really able to either work well on my projects or learning the language everything was always bit of half work.

Luckily though I didn't completely stop making work and always kept trying to re-edit my '...Blue' film and started to pick up an old project named 'Flow'. Still though I should have worked harder and more on these projects and created more content, I am not much satisfied with myself on this. Also should I have worked harder on learning the language as well as finding a job, but in the end a day only has 24 hours and when you reach that limit you automatically roll into a next and so and so on and even if you try very hard to squeeze more of those hours in a day you basically end up having a week to short on the end of your month. Time can be a enemy in a sense but is also the best friend to known about since structure is needed in the end of the day no matter how long that day last.

But as I said before things did change such as the plan to move to another place where I will also be able to divide work space from kitchen and the place to sleep, this might help my productivity somehow.

Another major change was that I recently have starting my own firm in Slovenia, about this whole procedure I can and will write a story later on, it is quite a story for sure can tell you that.

This firm have lead to some job opportunities, mostly future plans, but one is a past story already and an episode as well. The job resulted into not being paid (until now at least). All in all not everything is a failure or wrong but at same instant isn't very much working out for me either at least not for now, but I keep hopes high and wish for the best, or just better, that will do for me as well.

Anyhow I keep on going and as I have mentioned before on this blog and as well on my website and personal Facebook account, new work is coming up, the project Flow is still on its way.

And there is something else on the horizon, one of the things I love to do her in Slovenia is hiking some might knew that already, although hiking in mountains and nature, I have to admit that in the Netherlands I would never really feel any urge for a hike, I rather bike.

Nonetheless in Slovenia I do hike, and enjoy it a lot and would love to share my experiences, thoughts and ideas with other, so I decided to start up a youtube channel. Where I will Vlog about what all not, and use the hikes as a main theme and a vehicle to take the audience with me while expressing and executing ideas, concepts and opinions. In the beginning it will be mostly focused on the hikes and all related details such as routes and all other information, but the idea is to also integrate touristic information as if a short documentary about the locations I visited and at same instant I will also integrate other topics just like any other vlogger would do. But in its core it will be hiking, therefore it will be names Hiking with Marty. Already started the channel only still have to set up a google+ account, a Facebook page and an Instagram account as well, and most important I have to start creating content. As for now I will slowly on start up the channel and soon when I have a few videos online and made some steps in executing the idea a little better, then I will also share and promote this channel among friends, family and the outside world. Currently it will be a bit hidden and a nice easter egg for some to be found.

Another thing I started is a business related Facebook page where I can promote my professional work as a photographer, filmmaker etc. This will have a more commercial aim, and very soon I will launch a new website as well where I present older work (documentary series) and newer work with a more commercial focus, at least all what doesn't fit on my current website.

All in all I keep on working and fighting to make this happen, trying to sell myself in and around the creative industry as a (content) maker and developer while still making my personal art works and also trying to apply for jobs at any place possible, even the bugerfastfoodchain supply, if you know what I mean.
Nonetheless life seems to roll on and I keep on moving even though it seems a little sound on the front.

More stories on this blog will come, mostly in a more enjoying and funny way also about less funny matters such as the pain in the ass topics as Slovene bureaucracy and about not getting paid for doing a job but also about meeting great people and drinking snaps. And sure about upcoming project plans as well.

For now this was ja randomly made update about my current state in life, a life which seems to starts taking shape in this land of evergreen mountains, where I at least already manage to get an official address permit, meaning I official can stay, hurray.

And of course if you want to, any help or support is more then welcome, please contact me for any question, tip or idea but above all make sure that you share my website, work and profiles on Facebook, linkedin etc with everyone you know, and let them know I would love to work and make things happen.